Baby Girl decided to make her presence known this morning by having a little party in my uterus. I've felt what I assumed were small movements here and there very randomly, but this was the first time that I have been absolutely sure that it was her.
The whole thing lasted about 10 minutes before she calmed down and, I assume, went back to sleep. Most of the sensations were right below my belly button and a few on the sides. At the ultrasound she was sitting in a sort of diagonal breech position with her feet and bottom off to the right of my stomach and her head towards the top left. I wonder if she is still there or has totally changed positions. Based on the movement I was feeling it felt like she did a complete flip!
I've been trying to make an effort to talk to her. I've been talking to her in my head from the beginning, but now that her ears work I don't think that's going to cut it anymore. Her Papi says goodnight to her every night and tells her not to kick my bladder too much and keep me awake. :)
Sometimes when I walk by him I catch Roberto glancing at my growing belly and smiling. I know it sounds like a cheesy Hallmark card or something, but seeing him so happy makes me happy. I don't have a single doubt in my mind about how much he already loves this baby girl and that he is going to be a wonderful father.
I've heard other women describe not being able to form a bond with or really feel connected to their baby before she's born. That is definitely not the case for me. I feel so overwhelmed with love already that I can't imagine what it will be like seeing her face and holding her for the first time. Pregnancy has turned me into one big ball of emotions and often when I do try to talk to her I get cut off by my own silly tears. Sometimes I wonder if the feelings and emotions would be this strong if we hadn't lost our first two pregnancies. (In case any of you didn't know, we had two miscarriages - one in 2007 and one in 2008) There is just no way to know.
I took a camera phone shot of my belly at 19 weeks yesterday. I look like I'm showing a lot, but I definitely don't feel this big and so far no strangers have been brave enough to ask if I'm pregnant. :)